scary gargoyle on a tower...

really starting to have a crush on matt smith ,

Wasn’t sure at first, but now it just can’t be helped.

David Tennant made me giggle and all, but really, folks. Really.

It’s an improvement.

by the way ,

Oh and, then I got to get on MSN and talk about my date:

FRIEND: WELL HOW DID IT GO
since you remember and all

ME: It went… casually well. |D
We went and saw Kick Ass… which had a few awkward scenes… like he was jerking off and getting hot for the teacher’s boobs…
BUT OTHER THAN THAT

FRIEND: … WAIT WHAT
HE WAS JERKING OFF?

ME: LOL
…
I worded that wrong
IN THE FILM
THE GUY IN THE FILM
-dead-
e[fojegjeaz

FRIEND: well. anyway.

so i went on that date ,

Well, it wasn’t as awkward as I thought it would be. We met, had a random conversation on the way there, and waited about twenty minutes in the lobby since we were early. So yeah, sitting on a bench with some guy I don’t know, making conversation for twenty minutes. |: Anyway. Kick Ass was a little awkward to watch with this stranger, seeing as the first half hour or so consists of Kick Ass talking about his ability to easily get turned on, and then him jerking off, and getting hot off the teacher’s boobs. Yeah. So I had to sit there, trying not to crack up when this guy is next to me, probably trying not to crack up as well. So after that somewhat awkward theatre time, (my legs were asleep since for some reason I felt I shouldn’t move |:!) he’s all “…Wanna hit Dairy Queen?” And I’m all “Yeah, sure |D” so guess where we go next… And who should we run into but his brother, and his friend. AWKWARDNESS ALL ‘ROUND. And we managed to get home by ten, and mom was all “Geez, you’re back early” and frankly, I’m surprised I got that much out of her. So it was a night of awkwardness, random conversation, and ice cream. Oh and, I had something in my eye the whole time, so he probably thinks I have a nervous twitch. Great. And now, I am in shock from it all, because I was holding it back that whole time.

have a date in less than two hours ,

God have mercy on my soul.

People, wish me luck.

I may not make it out of this alive.

HERE GOES NOTHIN’, FOLKS.

so i had a bad trip ,

This is literally a copy&paste from my chat history on MSN. This is what happened last night when I was on those LSD-esque sleeping pills I wrote about earlier, and… I don’t even remember it… Well SOME things, but most, yeah, doesn’t ring any bells.

ME: omg
these sleeping pills
holy crap

FRIEND: they work?
or what

ME: crap I thinki I’m gonnna pass out

FRIEND: LOLLLL THEY’RE TALKING ABOUT CIGARETTE BUTTS LITTERING BEACHES
BUT THEY HAVE THE NEWS MOTTO ALONG THE BOTTOM OF EVERY HEADER THING
SO IT WAS LIKE “TOXIC BUTTS ON YOUR SIDE”

ME: looooooooooollllllllwutt
i am like spacing

FRIEND: they also talked to a woman named MARY LAUGHTER
i hope for her sake it’s lawter or laufter

ME: LOL WTF
I
think I got some weird
 
FRIEND: I think you got some weed

ME: LSD pills
holy shit
|D
this is very interesting
They are \\ bbv 

FRIEND: XD

ME: wtfpls
god theesasx asX sxSXssssssscxsSs[L
S[L[L[L[LLS

FRIEND: i know you’re high right now and might not appreciate this much
but holy shit fuck me now http://27.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_l1b4vxOR2P1qzi80do1_500.jpg

ME: ;LLLLLLLLLLLLLSLKKKKKKKK;K, .zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz,M[[’

FRIEND: WHAT ARE YOU DOING

ME: ///////////////

FRIEND: |D

ME: THIEW=====-OOOO”’[\]
thes pills\

FRIEND: I am totally tumblring this so you can see this tomorrow

ME: [o3qwipg]hejgio]\
FHI#RGH#IGI(H
THIS IS MDNEESSS

FRIEND: THIS IS SPARTA

ME: THE ROOM IS SPIIINNNNN

FRIEND: LOL

ME: FUCK ME I’M ON LSD

FRIEND: … i’ll brb

ME: ewqOWjfqOpwjk[pj[

FRIEND: nevermind

ME: Trippiinnnjnjnn
im freaking spinin
on some lsd junk

FRIEND: i think you should lay down or something.

ME: Everything’s gone out od wacjh
this sis so weird
i dont know if im dreaminf=
====================================ggggggggggggggg================================’]

FRIEND: |D

ME: holy crapp this is trippppppppuuuuuu
 trippingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg
wke[goej
{JK\
i feel like im on lsd |DS

FRIEND: I think you should just.. go lay down or something

ME: im dreaming anff not even asleep |D|D|DD|
msn looks 3d
wtfplz..
I am so messed up righ tnow.’
g/////.;;;;;;’/
dude these pills
not cool

FRIEND: sorry about that
my battery died

ME: i have left sanityville

FRIEND: well at least you typed that properly

ME: good
but the scrreen looks like a tsnk of waterr with fishes inn it

FRIEND: LOLOLOL

ME: all the fonts swimmin around
yep. lsd
thisn is srsly messing me up

FRIEND: |D

ME: It’s like LSD. |D
I don’t even kow what we were talking abiut 

FRIEND: I find it very appropriate that the video for Basketcase is on Fuse right now.

ME: llooooooollllllllllll

FRIEND: I hope you know I’m tumblring this conversation

ME: but i;m on lsd <.<

FRIEND: yes.
I HAVE TO MAKE SURE YOU REMEMBER THIS

ME: I can;t find basketcase or whatever

FRIEND: well it’s over now

ME: I don’t kno if im in the show, in the comouter, i dunno.

FRIEND: .. in the… what?
YOU’RE NOT IN A SHOW AND YOU’RE NOT IN THE COMPUTER

ME: LPOL
My icon isa moving around
ITSSSSSSSSSSSS ALIV EEEEEEEEEEEEEE

FRIEND: CAT:O
… damn

ME: *YAAAY

FRIEND: fucking asterisk fucking up my shit
*CAT:O

ME: Geirge lopez is harrasssing me man

FRIEND: … YOU.. YOU MADE THE YAY ICON
INTO AN EMOTE
A FULL FUCKING SIZED ICON EMOTE WHY WAS I NOT ALLOWED TO DO THIS
FUCK YOU MSN
LOLLLLLLLLLLLL

ME: i swesr i dont know where the fck i am
these pills
suck
this is a bad trip
a badbaad trip
my icon keeps moving aroujmnd
can’t be good
ohshit
the wolf drawing on my qwall is getting biteyy

FRIEND: …

ME: drip that bllood, wolfy
i should lay down

FRIEND: i’ve only said that twice. xD

ME: srsly this is gettinnn weirdl

ME: now drawing on the wall of Altair is smoking
|:

FRIEND: …

ME: almost fell over ma chair

FRIEND: lmao

lucy in the sky with diamonds ,

Okay, I pretty much had my firt trip last night. I got these new sleeping pills from the doctor for my insomnia right? Well about five minutes after taking them, I start going nuts on MSN, and the pictures on my walls started moving. The computer screen looked like a fish tank, where everything was swimming around, and I thought I was on the television, and George Lopez was harrassing me. Man, it was pretty out there. There’s this picture of a wolf on my wall, with blood dripping from its mouth, and it was biting, and then a picture I drew of my character was smoking and nodding like “Yeah man. I rolled this myself.” Then the other pictures were all bubbling, if that makes any sense… like, there were air pockets under them or something. I didn’t even remember anything from last night until later this morning, when mom was all “Hello, there druggy.” Apparently I was acting nuts out of my room too? When I left my room that night, I remember lurching around and generally looking nuts. And then collapsing on the stairs and mom all “GO TO BED” and me like, laughing or something. Fuck, it was like one big dream, and I was scared/having fun out of my mind, man. Out of my mind. It was like some Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas hooplah. You have no idea. I wasn’t even sure if I had dreamed it or not, when I finally did remember. Damn though, I haven’t had a good night’s sleep in years, and that had to have been the best sleep I’ve had since I was a kid—and, I get to take another one tonight… which should be interesting.

still I push my barrow all the day ,

I am finally getting some treatment for the chronic insomnia. Needless to say, I’m relieved. I just hope it works, or I’m going to have to go to a sleep clinic, which sounds like it could possibly reach out of my personal bubble of comfort. Okay, so I’m already uncomfortable as it is, because I’ve gone up to a size 11 in pants. HOW DOES THIS EVEN HAPPEN. I don’t even eat that much. Geez. I feel like such an awkward elephant. |: Well anyway, enough ranting for a day, since this has actually been somewhat of a decent day. Yesterday sucked—mom was on my case all day about how depressed I look, and I had to go to the mall looking like a rabid swamp-thing because my hair was sticking up in all directions. |: And now I have to go to guitar lessons, even though I just want to sleep, and I’m so tired I probably won’t even be able to pay attention. Oh, and then there’s still Saturday to look forward to… ugh. Sure I’ve never dated, but now that someone actually wants to date me, I don’t want to. Man, I have issues. |: